Please read Acts 27 and 28 of the journey that Paul experienced!
"Can I trust God even when my life gets stormy? Can I trust Him even when things go unexpectedly wrong? Can I trust Him even when my situation is so discouraging that I see no way out? Will I trust Him even when things seem hopeless?" Oh my, I wonder how many times I have asked these questions and several more in the last few months! In my posts, I seem to be stuck on this subject because of all the trauma in my life. If you have been following me then you know that my sweetheart of 27 years was diagnosed with cancer in June of this year. I can't begin to fill you in on everything and there would be no need anyway. This post is about trusting God no matter what! This roller coaster ride has taken me to the very bottom where I didn't think my heart could stand the pain and then to where I would soar with hope that he would live and be healthy again. Now the ride is not over with, right now we are home with physical therapy trying to get him on his feet so that we can finish treatment. I can't tell you what the outcome will be, only God knows. But I can tell you in the last week, peace has settled in my heart. Not peace that I will be okay if the end result is not what I want, but just peace, like the roller coaster ride has smoothed out a bit. This peace that comes from knowing God is in control. We all pray for God's will and then we find our scriptures to hang on to. This is standing firm in our faith, but what if this is not God's perfect plan? Do you see where I am going? I am believing for complete healing for this man that has my heart, but what if it is time for him to go home? I truly believe that trusting God is the hardest thing to do! Oh, we are full of faith but when the storms come, I will admit to you, my faith has wavered more than once. So what do we do? I have no answers nor has anyone else had one for me. Why do bad things happen to the children of God? Still no answers! It is for me just taking one day at a time, staying in the Word and continuing to believe in God. Is it easy? Not hardly, it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Will all this be used for the Glory of God? The Word says it will be, and will it be worth it somehow? Well, I guess I am still out on that one. I am trying so hard not to discourage you with my words, but somehow just show you my heart and it is just being honest with you. I have experienced every kind of emotion that can be imagined in this situation, I have blamed God (yes, I said that) and questioned Him for His motives in allowing this disease. I just also have to believe that God understands, after all He made me and knows full well my weakness and frailties. So where do we go from here? As I stated before, it is one day at a time, and trying not to figure out everything, which is silly. I am praying for my unbelief, for my faith to be strengthened and I am praying no matter what happens I will be faithful. This ride we are on leads to our destination of Heaven, there to be with Jesus for ever and ever. So no matter what happens, we will stay focused on Him who never leaves or forsakes us. Him who loves us and said He would never put more on us than we can stand but would make a way of escape. "Just allow God to still the storms" ! Thank you for your prayers and letting me share with you this ride. I pray God's richest blessing on your life, and if it is a while before I pen another post, Merry Christmas. May it be the memorable ever!
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