Please read Acts 27 and 28 of the journey that Paul experienced!
"Can I trust God even when my life gets stormy? Can I trust Him even when things go unexpectedly wrong? Can I trust Him even when my situation is so discouraging that I see no way out? Will I trust Him even when things seem hopeless?" Oh my, I wonder how many times I have asked these questions and several more in the last few months! In my posts, I seem to be stuck on this subject because of all the trauma in my life. If you have been following me then you know that my sweetheart of 27 years was diagnosed with cancer in June of this year. I can't begin to fill you in on everything and there would be no need anyway. This post is about trusting God no matter what! This roller coaster ride has taken me to the very bottom where I didn't think my heart could stand the pain and then to where I would soar with hope that he would live and be healthy again. Now the ride is not over with, right now we are home with physical therapy trying to get him on his feet so that we can finish treatment. I can't tell you what the outcome will be, only God knows. But I can tell you in the last week, peace has settled in my heart. Not peace that I will be okay if the end result is not what I want, but just peace, like the roller coaster ride has smoothed out a bit. This peace that comes from knowing God is in control. We all pray for God's will and then we find our scriptures to hang on to. This is standing firm in our faith, but what if this is not God's perfect plan? Do you see where I am going? I am believing for complete healing for this man that has my heart, but what if it is time for him to go home? I truly believe that trusting God is the hardest thing to do! Oh, we are full of faith but when the storms come, I will admit to you, my faith has wavered more than once. So what do we do? I have no answers nor has anyone else had one for me. Why do bad things happen to the children of God? Still no answers! It is for me just taking one day at a time, staying in the Word and continuing to believe in God. Is it easy? Not hardly, it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Will all this be used for the Glory of God? The Word says it will be, and will it be worth it somehow? Well, I guess I am still out on that one. I am trying so hard not to discourage you with my words, but somehow just show you my heart and it is just being honest with you. I have experienced every kind of emotion that can be imagined in this situation, I have blamed God (yes, I said that) and questioned Him for His motives in allowing this disease. I just also have to believe that God understands, after all He made me and knows full well my weakness and frailties. So where do we go from here? As I stated before, it is one day at a time, and trying not to figure out everything, which is silly. I am praying for my unbelief, for my faith to be strengthened and I am praying no matter what happens I will be faithful. This ride we are on leads to our destination of Heaven, there to be with Jesus for ever and ever. So no matter what happens, we will stay focused on Him who never leaves or forsakes us. Him who loves us and said He would never put more on us than we can stand but would make a way of escape. "Just allow God to still the storms" ! Thank you for your prayers and letting me share with you this ride. I pray God's richest blessing on your life, and if it is a while before I pen another post, Merry Christmas. May it be the memorable ever!
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9 comments:
Dearest friend of mine. You are so strong in the Lord, that is why I feel such a great friendship with you. To write this is probably very therapeutic for you but also because it comes straight from God and the peace that He has given you. God Bless You Always.
Shirley - I have thought of you often these past few months. Your post is not discouraging, it is open and honest and most of us (if we would admit it) have had times when we feel the same mix of emotions. I'm not sure if I told you, but my husband was diagnosed with cancer almost 20 years ago. It was an up and down ride for us and the cancer returned the following year. Now, he has been 18 years cancer free.
Yes, I had times that I blamed God, questioned God, fretted, worried.... you name it. However, I did experience that peace - peace that passes all understanding.
I am glad you are home for a while and join you in praying for your husband's full healing and recovery.
Blessings,
Joan
As Joan said, you are being open and honest here with your readers and I find that a blessing. Sometimes we may feel like we are the only one who questions God's plan for ourselves or those we love...but we are not and He can handle any quetion, blame, or anger we have. Your strength and faith comes through your words..your honesty and openess gives us strength as we face our own trials and storms. Praying for your husband and you today. Beautiful post...just beautiful.
Bless your heart, Shirley. I'm praising God for the peace He blessed you with. So thankful He goes with us during the storm -- even in the questioning times.
Precious thoughts, Shirley. A heart asking questions and finding answers in God's training sessions, makes me stand in awe. You will be/are such a comfort to others as you pay forward what He is teaching you now.
May His joy touch your heart today.
Much love.
Your strength and faith are a real blessing to me. One of the hardest things to understand is why good people suffer. You're right. We can only hold on and know that God understands and his ways are so much higher than ours that we can't understand. I'm praying for you and your dear husband. I know God will hold both of your hands and see you through whatever comes your way.
Prayers and blessings,
Charlotte
Being real is so important, ...and that's what you're doing, my friend. At a ladies' conference one time someone said to me, "Broken vessels carry the most water." In our honesty and our weaknesses, He is made strong, and His grace leaks out through the cracks in our broken, weak vessels to others.
Thinking of you, praying for you - especially right now at this Christmas season.
Thinking of you. Praying for you. Just checking your site, ...Wondering if you had any time to blog again. ...Praying you can take care of yourself in the midst of caring for your husband.
Nice post thanks for sharing...God bless you...
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